Le Freak Out
Who knew a little email could cause me to wake in the middle of the night and send me into a cold sweat?!
Just over a week ago I had my first major freak out moment.
I knew that it was going to happen sooner or later, I have just been so wrapped up in work and planning that I didn't see it coming.
So, what was it that sent me running to the fridge in the middle of the night for comfort food?! (hmmm. chocolate) An email from the real estate agent confirming my 28 days notice to move out of my apartment.
That's it. Ridiculous.
Nothing remotely scary or particularly panic worthy. Yet for some reason, it was that little email that triggered 'le freak out' moment.
What exactly embodies a freak out moment you may ask?! Well basically all the negative thoughts that you have and that other people have voiced all bubble to the surface amounting in a rush of adrenaline, waves of nausea and the fear that you am making a huge mistake. It lasted all of about 5 minutes, but it was enough to wake me from a sleep and leave me sitting there pondering my life changing decision.
For so long this has been a dream of mine and even with all the things I have done to prepare, it continues to feel just like that. A dream. It wasn't until I received this email confirming I am giving up my apartment, my AMAZING apartment, that for the first time it actually felt like a reality.
I am grateful for the freak out moments, because they keep you grounded. They make chasing your dreams all the more worth while.
Now I am just trying to focus on one day at a time and live for the moment. When you have such a big adventure ahead of you, it can be extremely hard and as a result it's left me feeling as though I am in a constant dream like state. My realities are beginning to blur as I continue to make plans for my new life I am beginning to tie up loose ends, starting to say goodbyes & closing important chapters in my present.
So here is to the next 3 weeks.
To enjoy my last few days of work, to spend valuable time with friends and family & most importantly to live each minute of each day & enjoy my time left in Australia. It is after all the most beautiful country in the world!
So make it a good one.
xo
Just over a week ago I had my first major freak out moment.
I knew that it was going to happen sooner or later, I have just been so wrapped up in work and planning that I didn't see it coming.
So, what was it that sent me running to the fridge in the middle of the night for comfort food?! (hmmm. chocolate) An email from the real estate agent confirming my 28 days notice to move out of my apartment.
That's it. Ridiculous.
Nothing remotely scary or particularly panic worthy. Yet for some reason, it was that little email that triggered 'le freak out' moment.
What exactly embodies a freak out moment you may ask?! Well basically all the negative thoughts that you have and that other people have voiced all bubble to the surface amounting in a rush of adrenaline, waves of nausea and the fear that you am making a huge mistake. It lasted all of about 5 minutes, but it was enough to wake me from a sleep and leave me sitting there pondering my life changing decision.
For so long this has been a dream of mine and even with all the things I have done to prepare, it continues to feel just like that. A dream. It wasn't until I received this email confirming I am giving up my apartment, my AMAZING apartment, that for the first time it actually felt like a reality.
I am grateful for the freak out moments, because they keep you grounded. They make chasing your dreams all the more worth while.
Now I am just trying to focus on one day at a time and live for the moment. When you have such a big adventure ahead of you, it can be extremely hard and as a result it's left me feeling as though I am in a constant dream like state. My realities are beginning to blur as I continue to make plans for my new life I am beginning to tie up loose ends, starting to say goodbyes & closing important chapters in my present.
So here is to the next 3 weeks.
To enjoy my last few days of work, to spend valuable time with friends and family & most importantly to live each minute of each day & enjoy my time left in Australia. It is after all the most beautiful country in the world!
'Today is the first day of the rest of your life.'
Charles Dederich
So make it a good one.
xo
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